12 March 2012


Last month's theme was resolve.   It seems so long ago I had my list of resolutions/goals for the year...healthier eating, stretching myself creatively.  I envisioned February's theme of "horizons" much differently - a vast stretch of NM desert that I've learned to appreciate more after having moved away and moved back.

That was before a lump was found, before a barrage of tests and appointments with doctors who were "concerned" and ultimately a diagnosis.  Before the words "chemo" and "surgery" and "survival rate."  And now the concept of "horizon" seems so much different...my new resolution, and only resolution this year, is to beat cancer.  My long term resolutions are simple:  to watch my children graduate and grow old with my husband.  It's amazing how quickly our priorities can get set straight.  The blinds in the kitchen nook that keep falling down are no longer important.  Business goals are on the back burner.  Dishes piling up in the kitchen go unnoticed as I sit down on the kitchen floor with Veggie Tales play dough strewn about between the two younger kids.  

And the image that came to mind for this month was an old one...one from my photography class in college.  Done on a hand-me-down film camera and processed in a darkroom.  Beautiful black and white images need whites and blacks and grays in between.  I'm reminded that it wouldn't be as striking without the dark.  Without the contrast to make the light seem that much brighter.  And that couldn't be more true than right now.  

"I am not afraid of storms for I am learning how to sail my ship." - Louisa May Alcott

11 March 2012

champ



 With a name like Champ and two older brothers doting on you, what's not to smile about?! ;)


27 January 2012

January: resolve



I mentioned in a previous post that I love the beginning of a new year.  I think new year's resolutions get a bad rap...maybe if you set completely unrealistic goals, expect perfection, and then beat yourself up if you don't reach 100%, it would be discouraging.  But for the past few years I've set small goals in several areas of my life each month.  Sometimes I've attained them, and sometimes I just have to keep working on them.  I love reevaluating at the start of each new year and see which goals I'm meeting, which just aren't going to happen at this phase of my life, and which I want to add.

Jodi over at mcp actions is hosting a Project 12 - a theme a month.  January's theme is "resolve."  What are my goals for this year?  Well, every year I aim to be a little healthier.  I'm not planning on hitting the gym this month - I love my Pilates class and am just going to stick with that - but I decided I needed a quick kick in the rear when it comes to my eating habits.  I've tried gradually improving my eating (I've come a long way from high school, where I lived off coke and Reese's peanut butter cups for lunch every day. I kid you not) - less sugar, more water, more vegetables - but it never lasts long.  Kim introduced me to the whole 30, which is more drastic than anything I've ever done, but my husband and I decided it would be a good opportunity to turn our eating around.

So no carbs, no sugar, no dairy, no legumes (I think that basically sums up what I usually eat) and no alcohol.  For 30 days.  Plenty of lean meats, veggies, some fruit and good fats like avocados and almonds.  How hard can it be, right?  You can do anything for 30 days....well, the first couple of weeks were hard.  I know you aren't supposed to say that, but they were.  I think I'm a full on sugar addict.  I had a cry for help on facebook, melted down with my husband, and now I'm able to write about it because I'm nearly done.  How's that for a dietary wimp? ;)

I have to say that I've learned a lot, and there are things I'll keep and things I won't.  Eating more veggies and drinking more water have become much more of a habit when you don't really have many alternatives.  We've been working on cleaner foods for a while (no high fructose corn syrup for the past year or so), but now that I'm reading labels more, I'm amazed how much extra stuff is in our food besides, well...food!  Too much of my eating was done out of convenience or habit and although the sheer amount of cooking when you can't just pour cereal in the morning, not to mention the dishes, was daunting, now I'm more in the habit of cooking regularly.  I don't plan on living without carbs (I didn't have enough energy to do Pilates with no carbs, or not enough calories, or whatever it was), but I'll make them more whole grains - I had gotten into the habit of refined flour and pastas.  I'm not getting rid of sugar altogether, but again, less white refined sugars and more raw sugars or honey.

I've also been convicted of how much my eating influences my kids.  When they ask for snacks now, they ask for bananas or carrots instead of crackers.  Wow.  And I wasn't a huge fast food eater, but we haven't eaten any in the past month, and I don't miss it at all!  I've also become more selective about what's worth it to indulge...I've decided that I miss coffee and I'm not going to give it up, although 2% milk in my coffee with a little raw sugar now tastes as sweet as when I used to drink it with half&half and 3 spoons of sugar (I know, right?!).  I made a cake from a box this month for a friend's birthday, and a few months ago I would have eaten it just because it was there, but it honestly didn't even look that good.  I think I'm more able to splurge when it's worth it (a tirimasu, for example), but not eat anything I want just because it's there.


So here's to more water, veggies, and less refined sugars and processed foods, the hard way, but what for me seems to have been the only way.  What goals do you have for the year?  And how are you doing with them?

Ellen :)

23 January 2012

first family session of 2012







and my favorite kind...natural, relaxed and fun.  :)

03 January 2012

Happy New Year!



I love the fresh start a new year provides...as much as I love putting up our Christmas tree, I feel a sigh of relief when I take it down and our living room looks less crowded.  Simpler.  I love the promise of fresh starts, ambitious goals (we get so down on new year's resolutions, but what's so bad about aiming high?) and refocusing.

The start of a new year encourages me to take on a new photo project...I did a 365 project a couple of years ago, and I'm glad I did, especially since it was my last baby's first year.  It was good to get the camera out and get something every day, and it helped me to worry less about perfect photos and more about documenting our lives.  I printed a blurb book and the kids love to look at it.  I lost some steam at the end, though - I think my last three months were all iphone pictures. ;)  If I ever did another 365 project, it might have to be something like this instagram 366.  Photojojo has some great ideas for photo projects for the new year too, in case you're looking for ideas. ;)

Last year I did a Project Life album - not 365, just a family scrapbook.  I managed to keep pretty up-to-date surprisingly...I'm just finishing up December and then I'll start this year's.  Next year I may transition to a digital album using her template on shutterfly.  It's been a perfect "scrapbook" for me because it's mostly photosleeves, with journaling pages and papers so you don't have to mess with layouts and stickers (you can, and some get really creative with it, but I like the simplicity of printing out 4x6's, writing on a small card and being done).

While I was doing my 365 project, I was also inspired by Tara Whitney's project of doing a family photo each month.  It was great practice to find ways to include myself in photos!  Stephanie is doing a personal project, taking photos of her own kids once a week, and is starting with a photo each day in January.  A photo a day for a month seems realistic - I did this last year on facebook, but it might be nice to not have an "assignment" and just take photos of whatever I want.  There are several 52 week projects out there, where you take a photo each week, usually assigned, but I'm not ready to commit to having to having to shoot, edit, and upload a photo each week based on an assignment...lazy, I know! ;)

So I think I've finally settled on mcp action's Project 12 - I can do a photo a month, right? ;)  This month's theme is "resolution," which is perfect for January.  I'll be back with my post for this theme!

What photo projects are you aiming for this year?

23 December 2011

Merry Christmas!



I hope you have a wonderful day celebrating with your loved ones!

Ellen :)

14 December 2011

baby face



 (sing with me now) - "you've got the cutest little baby face..."

13 December 2011

remember...



 ...these twins?



time flies, doesn't it?

20 November 2011

bosque maternity





  It's a small, small world.  Amanda is the sister of my high school bff (in the days of MASH and cootie catchers - ha!).  And now she's having twins! (I know, she looks as pregnant as I did with one).  Congratulations!! :)


19 November 2011

family








 someone buy them a t-shirt that says, "I make cute kids..."


 ...and this is why! ;)